Up late!

I can't believe I'm still awake. This so rarely happens to me......
I was playing the piano tonight and kept singing this same line over and over again. There's a war within my heart. I moved on from there but then I'm laying in bed at 11:30 and it won't get out so I turn on my light and start writing and now here I am blogging at midnight. I think I might write a song!

There's a war within my heart
I feel the pull from every side
Screaming for my affections
Demanding my attention
Sometimes I wonder who will win

In the midst of this war
I hear a voice that seems louder than the rest
Screaming for my affections
Demanding my attention
And I realize.....this voice belongs to me
I wonder who will win

Suddenly I feel an old familiar touch
That somehow feels so new
And an old familiar love
That seems to be breaking through
And a voice, louder than mine could ever be
If I let it be....
And I wonder who will win
His voice, or mine

Rough draft mind you. But wow. It's funny when you realize the voice that's SCREAMING for the 'affections' and the 'attention' is your own. Our biggest battle: ourselves. Our biggest struggle: our hearts and its affections pulling with every beat. Over a period of 5 months, I wondered who would win. His voice or my own. Of course, I didn't realize it was my own until I was a few months into it. I didn't realize I was my OWN worst enemy. Heart, you deceived me! lol. Sometimes we wonder who will win. But He indeed has a voice louder than ours could ever be.......yet we have to let it be. Thank you Jesus I seem to be letting it be! For now. I'm sure the next place of a resistance will be a doozy! lol