Love

It's been way too long since I've posted something! My life is on steroids at the moment. Work, work, work. I don't have much to say other than why do we so suck at loving one another? Like really loving? The kind where it's hard and you have to surrender your own irritations, rights, or SELF. I have been feeling convicted over this all week. If He can love me when I'm so ridiculously unlovable.....and if He can manage not to JUDGE me but love me instead. He's quite amazing. I keep hearing, "And I ask you to do the same." To love one another. When it's ugly and hard. When you'd rather respond in irritation, which lately seems to be my ONLY response. I think, "I seriously suck at this!!!" My heart judges first. I'm irritated first. It's funny that an entire Kingdom built on the REALITY of love, not our made-up version of it, isn't practiced. Isn't thought about. Isn't taught. Yet it's the purpose OF that entire Kingdom. Oh Jesus. Help me.